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excerpt from “Big Boys do Cry”

….your past can be hung around your neck. Relatives, friends and strangers perceptions shaded by “What was,” may filters all their decisions about you.

Its hard to overcome.  The saying, “Everyone has a past” do not mean shit if they knows yours. A judgment covertly rendered and held against you for the duration of life. Its like we all know we lie, steal and cheat, but you got caught. In that instance you are exiled to a lower moral position.

Some do not want you around their children, heaven forbid you speak about moral character. You secretly become something of a novelty. Cool to drink, laugh and socialize with but not trusted, this phenomenon more with men then women.

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Men are more timid then women, they hoard everything, the spirit of competition does not allow intimacy. Each of their ideals driven by, “How can I take care of myself first” not their family, themselves. To be better then the next man, underneath a game plays out, a one-upmanship…

I have never met a selfish cat who was a strong spiritual man, never. A selfish man is motivated by fear and jealousy. He always finds a way not to share nothing of valve. His emotions are deeply defended against conversation of depth. They would rather throw you some chips before talking about themselves.

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….a underlining problem with African American male culture is the intellectualize black man inability to inspire. The highly ineffective men in position of change changes not. The cultural similarity of black males long vacant after scholar endeavors widen the gap between his modern day contemporary.

….although born and raised in ghettos of urban cities across America. They have not a clue in dealing with the urban gorilla that stalks streets today in their old hood. Afraid of the highly aggressive black male they retreat unable or unwilling to befriend such combatants…

They have become the adult black males cursed a generation ago for being selfish egotistical sell-out…

~robert williams

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