I am holding on to “something,” what that something maybe I do not know.
However, I feel its tension in my daily affairs and my frustration
It grows with the mental constipation
My transformation may not begin until I discover
why and what “something” does to my mind
I hunger for a change from my old life
Am I afraid of “something”? How do you discover fear hidden deep inside?
Well, at least I noticed my dilemma, unlike my previous life of denial
I faced nothing truthfully; however, this “something” is real
Something may be “expectations” Yes! Expectations
The dreaded process of what may happen scares me
Expectations from family, friends, and life
Conversely, I feel frustrated, it drains my spirit
And circumvents my growth, I hate to be honest
Are we ever in the “moment”? When we have expectations?
How does one accept the moment with expectations flooding the soul?
Do we not anticipate life? Set goals? I feel lost without expectations
and stuck with them. Expectations frustrate my psyche and I expect
one day they will not. (You see, there I go again)
Hopefully, I rid myself of my dreaded expectations,
So, I live in the moment.
Consequently, able to accept whatever happens will feel great,
Until then; I “expect” nothing, however “something” is out there.
The Invisible Dragon