The Dreaded, Body-Mind Divorce

397738362_4c68cb9e61A marriage with the unseen remains dubious. The body-mind entity, a determine opponent seeks a permanent connection.

Sadly, the forces of unreasonable desires, unobtainable happiness, and chronic worry; believes it owns me.

I blame only myself. I conditioned the beast with chronic lies of, “I Am This,” and “I Am in Control,” dialogs. The marriages to these falsities, both sad and distressing, currently obstruct my egotistical divorce. After years of professed devotional commitment, ego refuses to permit my exit without a fight.


“I Want Out”

Spiritual freedom from an egotistical marriage comes at a lofty price. My true nature is a foreign invader that met furious resistance to become my new mate. Sadly, in the beginning, I fought aside my ego; believing its lies that began in my youth.

The attachment to self-identity began at an early age and quickly flooded my thinking. Our family, society, and world, all shouted! “Who Are You?” Who AM I, and how do I insure my position in this world. I soon attracted my flirting ego. My quest for self-identity propelled a insatiable appetite of unreachable desires.  Ego and I married soon after my tenth birthday.48162_4faf

My infectious marriage erected a house of illusions. For example, some of my ego’s illusionist magic, (1) desires just out of touch, (2) happiness always fleeting, or (3) need just one more break and everything will be fine.

The cheating ego produces only unresolved past issues and hopes of better future. It flooded my mind with unobtainable requests relentlessly.  Remarkably it turned around and provided the anger for my dissatisfaction.  Cheating Bastard!


“Leave the Keys on the Dresser”

Possessed by a cyclical unsatisfied mind I proceed through life a married malcontent.  I did not recognize my true nature.   I begin to disguise my beast, at my height of delusion people wondered about my sanity.  I exhibited constant anger and stress.

Family and friends questioned who would appear, pseudo-happy brooding breast or Mr. Unrecognizable. So many identities required countless disguises, I lived in a marriage of lies for years.

My divorce from the egotistical mind is hard-hitting and undecided. However, I experience new conscious experiences often, which boost my faith. A prescription for divorce from ego rest not in text or advice. No one can help you with this process.


“How to Start Over”

You must free yourself.  The person, whom said, “I Do” must challenge the ego marriage. External supplements possess no value.  Praying, meditating or yoga are clever egotistical props.  A egotistical trick, wrapped inside of God, a old stale trick to induce attachment to an external object.  “You Are What You Seek!”

Stay in your heart, change your consciousness and the divorce will occur. Your natural being, needs no instructions, you will find truth, when you look for it.


The Invisible Dragon

What is Spiritual Faith?

First, What Faith is Not


Faith is not relentless praying and meditating until wishes come true. **Faith is not the practice of good behavior with hopes of a better life here or after**Faith is not the practice of customs, traditions or rituals ** Faith is not precondition behaviors for rewards, faith is not tithes**faith is not hate or intolerance**faith is not God is “On our Side,” ** faith is not a pastor, minister, pope, bishop, palm reader or fortune teller ** faith is not specific behaviors practiced on certain days ** faith is not men-only to being preachers ** faith is not believing all who disagree with your faith should burn in hell ** faith is not heterosexual nor homosexual preference ** faith is not race, creed or color ** faith is not religious clothing ** faith is not chants, mantras, or The Lord’s pray ** Faith is not the Bible, Koran, or any other book, who claims it’s a book of faith ** Faith is not being right ** faith is not a great spiritual orator ** faith is not a mega-church or a small cozy one ** faith is not an act of miracles ** faith is not the Virgin Mary ** a picture of a crying Jesus ** or a bright light witnessed in near death situations ** Faith is not things working out for you ** faith is not converting followers to your faith ** faith is not abstinence ** faith is not abstaining from pre-martial sex, alcohol, booze or drugs, ** and faith is not the sole ownership of those who believes their faith is stronger than others.

What is Faith?


Faith is nothing. Faith is thoughtless, faith is silence, faith is stillness, faith is inner-spirit, faith is self-harmony, faith is non-judgmental, faith is egoless, faith is love of all and abandonment of none, faith is guiding one’s own life, faith is change, faith is spiritual balance, faith is self-discovery, faith is self-honesty, faith is patience, faith is self-awareness, faith is desire-less, faith is non-expectations, faith is inner-growth, faith is inclusion…Faith is saying, I’m sorry…Faith is accepting I’m sorry…Faith is forgiveness…Faith is love… Faith is blind….


Robert Williams

Day 6, Why prays go unanswered?

A exploration of spiritual stillness, 30 day fast of reading, studying and practicing the 26th verse of Tao Te Ching. (Living Calmly) The month long spiritual exercise in accepting and being gracious for what lies ahead. Being a avid hack writer, I’ll post 30 days consecutively, thoughts on “Being Content.” Poems, exercises, take-home assignments, etc.


Day 6,

God where are you?

No spiritual phenomenon causes more discontent then the unanswered pray. I have many Christians brothers and sisters, more so then any other religion. I do not have a definitive answer to what pray is, I repeat its meaning from popular culture.

Recently I began to investigate the age old practice, a inner perspective of sort. What is pray? In our Western society Christianity is king, Jesus or Bust. My wife’s a Christian, so my knowledge of the practice presently comes from it.

From my understanding pray is the, “Request of intervention by God.” A better jobs, relief of mental/physical, pain, new wife etc. The practice can be done from any bodily positions, alone or with a group. I believe a group gives pray more impact, a team thing.

I have distanced myself slowly from the belief God intervenes on my request.  The biggest misconception of God, “Pray and he’ll grant your desires.” Nothing could be further from the truth, there are unnumbered people praying regularly that are discontent.

I’m Bless, are you really?

Repetitive complaints about their lives, about their misfortunes, poor relationships, it never ends. I witness more Christians complaining then anyone, I know more poor people at peace, without a pot to piss in.

Should your child be blessed above everyone else? Must your marriage go without hardship? Must you have a better paying job? Only you can answer that, if you feel God has promise this to you, you have many restless nights ahead. The belief that a supernatural force intervenes on your behalf is delusional, it create your lack of gratitude.

Without gratitude, you consistently pray for supplement, waiting impatiently for your blessings. Jealous of others who you believe do not deserve what they have. You’re consumed with envy and strife, collapsing at the pray alter every other Sunday.


Peace for the Soul

Live in Harmony now, praying the one pray you’ll every need, “Thank you.” This sent out to the universe sends back peace, acceptance, gratitude. Peace with whatever God has given.  Consequently, do not pretend gratefulness, so you can receive favor, “I’m blessed,” but privately cursing your life. Many have taken up this magic trick, but nothing comes from it, but more pain.

God can not be fooled, you trick yourself, words are the least trusted measure of faith. If you are truly thankful, your pray have been answered. You need not shout for supplement, but only to whisper, “Its done.”

It takes life’s lessons and self-discipline to be faithful, it can not be taught or sermon to you. It must be experienced and then you’ll know the peace of a man with nothing. The smile of the condemned, the joy of the homeless, the poor.

You fight on however, yet with all your praying you still don’t understand,

“The meek shall inherit the earth.”


The Invisible Dragon