Peace is elusive to the seeker whose eyes are open. In this condition trees are rigid, rivers remain unsettle, and clouds maintain their downpour. Egotistical schemas sequester the temporary world in this infested perception. As a result the self-centered mind cannot erect a path to silence. However the mind of imagery must receive a pardon to begin the journey. Tranquility is within, the travel requiring limited supplies; an internal map carved by experiences is all one needs. Peace desires nothing, possess nothing, it is being nothing. The awareness to accept yourself is the stillness we seek.
The Invisible Dragon
Yesterday I obstructed the power of the Tao, if that is at all possible. In a messy situation, my inability to recognize my egotistical cravings got the best of me. Unfortunately, my instinctual attribute (Combativeness) hindered my opportunity to recognize and then retreat from an unwinnable battle. Albeit quickly after the incident, my consciousness distinguished a positive through the negative.
Nevertheless, the stain pinched my spiritual evolutionary process to adapt. More importantly, my natural instinct of combativeness requires a constant vigil for me to identify, “When to Yield and When to Go Forward.” On an athletic field, game of backgammon or verbal jousting, agitation has been an ally and enemy to my learning process.
In my past, my natural intuition was to overtake a person, place or thing to control outcomes. Thus, this egotistical yet natural character trait produced both positive and negative outcomes. However, my inability to remain balanced caused my personality to become obsessed with control.
New Wine in an Empty Bottle
As a result, I was fraught with fear and ultimately overthrown from within. The miscalculation that yielding signified a flaw infested my spirit and corrupted my consciousness. As such, the final determinations, my inability to yield and allow a natural resolve in situations weaken me considerably.
Without question, my natural impulse of combativeness is a trait that has helped me develop. Specifically, it instigates my resiliency to survive in harsh circumstances and advance my cognitive adaptation. More importantly, the Tao is a faith of humility and conscious intelligence with my evolution.
In other words, it helps me recognize imbalances and quickly regulate cognitive thinking skills. Yesterday, I failed to practice my faith to adjust my characteristic to surrender and yield.
My trait to accept responsibility and make amends is who I AM. Consequently, being right is not significant to me; however, yesterday may cause debate in this area. Nevertheless, in the future, one may attest to my capability to yield, surrender and accept situations and opposing views peacefully. Subsequently, engaging in verbal jousting however will require additional due diligence and review of topics, speakers and forums.
Where one desires gain, one may experience lost.
The Invisible Dragon
We are exhausted, faint from repetitive thoughts and unsuccessful efforts at life’s conquest. Regardless of numerous attempts, we appear hopelessly deadlocked in the court of ‘not arriving’. As such, our peace resembles a mirage off into the distance. If only we prayed harder or secured a little luck, maybe next time we win. Again however, it ends repeatedly with a ‘girl’s night out or ‘a little me time’ to refurbish our fatigue minds. We are stuck.
Subsequently, attempts escapes like a failing fish from out grip drains our spirit. All in all, we are trapped and we know it. However, with certainty, the vital reason for our purgatory existence lies with the attachments to our physical life. In other words, our connection to what we can see is stronger than we cannot see that which faith is.
As a result, we seldom give in to the unseen (faith); the mortal world attractions instead consume our mind. We become so concern with what we have than who we really are. In fact, our clothing, automobiles, houses and organizations becomes all-important. We accept this second place result, while wrestling against the pains ensue upon our lives from the associations. Sadly, though, our faith also is not in communion with God’s path, but an altered egotistical path is our master.
The first step to unleashing our inner-power is to end the chase of worldly recognitions and acquisitions. Build an earnest to fulfill the destiny of our spiritual path by accepting less and refusing to take credit for things. As a reminder, we do not have to be first or right in all situations. In addition, when we help remain silent, take no thought of our practice; hence, we may expect something back in the future.
Our philosophy should be to strive beyond the superficiality and actualize our inner power. Also, we should work mercifully to change our awareness by realizing it is the only sustainable force we possess. Thus, if we truly recognize ourselves as a fraction of God, we would not yearn for the temporary lures of the ego. In fact, we would resemble the opposite of our worldly nature; we would never become stuck or ‘wanting.’ As a result, of not living through desires, the spirit would be at peace we what is.
Release The Power From Within
“Don’t move. Just die over and over. Don’t anticipate. Nothing can save you now because you have only this moment. Not even enlightenment will help you now because there are no other moments. With no future, be true to yourself and express yourself fully. Don’t move.” Shunryu Suzuki…Give yourself permission to feel perfect, with where you are with what you have. Furthermore, realize that the present moment is the only moment that exists. We become stuck when we fight the present moment.
In short, unleash yourself from the bondage of constant thoughts and wishes. Instead, settle into a state of mindfulness; by guiding oneself into a deeper realm of consciousness. “Amidst the worldly comings and goings, observe how endings become beginnings.” ~ Tao Te Ching…Stay balance, not going to high or venturing to low, find the peace inside one and deliver yourself.
Hence, there is a time to go ahead and a time to stay behind.
There is a time to breathe easy and a time to breathe hard.
There is a time to be vigorous and a time to be gentle.
There is a time to gather and a time to release.
Can you see things as they are
And let them be all on their own?
The Invisible Dragon
My life use to resemble a chainsaw with a broken cut-off switch. I constantly buzzed with the thunder of a truck missing a muffler. Jumping from one thought to another in milliseconds. In addition, the foreign jargon I called speech, in reality was the soundtrack of a psychopathological lunatic. Sadly, the Dragon was a spirit without love, a nomadic appliance, a self-destructive, all-consuming bowl of mindlessness.
Being lost in illusions as I refer to it defines a person whom lack self-love. Often they remind us of a disruptive force driven by ‘slow suicidal’ actions (i.e., substance abuse, addictions, ego-driven, constant worrying). However, without shame, it was fear that denied me the ability to love myself. The demonized circus (mind) slowly and with precision was killing me. Sadly, however, with religious conviction, I sought its companionship over and over again.
High Flying Acts of Self-Destruction
To recite my fanatical escapades illustrated with clinical depression, substance abuse and risky behaviors would appear to create excuses. However, as pertinent as these factors were to my dissension, they receive a pardon with just cause. Subsequently, my spirit long sequestered, painted a silhouette of fear inside me as a teen. I cannot pinpoint the fear origination, but my spiritual restoration provided a pathology.
I never understood love. My conception of love was ill designed from adolescence. Regardless, however, this foreign agent (ego) bent on spiritual espionage, persuaded my divine implosion. Unfortunately, I was unable to uncover the covert operative before near total self-destruction. The inability to see love as a “verb” nearly cost me my life.
We operate from two emotions, love or fear. Our actions easily become translatable when we understand this premise. For instance, we cannot pain ourselves or another person and describe it as love. Regardless of blamable factors (i.e., addiction, selfishness, envy) love is an action that “never hurts.” As another example, when love ones do bizarre behaviors, irresponsible self-destructive acts, this is fear, it is a call for love and help. Absolutely, they are afraid and they do not know how to say it or save themselves.
Fear, the Great Deceiver
With that in mind, until they rid themselves of fear, tsunamis of unthinkable events will create mass self-destruction and repercussions. Our only thoughts, “How could they do this to me?” & “How could they do it to themselves?” Without question, it is the ultimate cry for help, an act of slow suicide is more appropriate. As we guess, fear kill without reason or just cause. It has nothing to do with the victim personally. It is a child, teen or adult crying out, “I am scared and I hate myself.”
The Dragon recites this account from personal experiences. Thus, it is not a formula or antidote one swallow easy. The brave walk this path; you cannot sneak into spiritual restoration lacking self-love. It is muddy-waters for sure and the clever individuals deepens into its quicksand. You cannot fake it (Love); it eventually cries out for help.