Monday’s Poem: Numb by Will J. Hobbs

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“Eyes wide open with my mind wide shut. Heart still beating with the blood flow ceased. Arms outstretched but my hands can’t feel. In the midst of a storm stark naked begging for the refreshing coolness of the rain the ease the burning of my ignorance. Pouring the water on my tongue hoping that it will quench this insatiable thirst to feel what so many others seem to experience.

Staring glazed over into a mirror hoping to become enlightened in my own self worth and existence. Searching for my way around a dark room feeling nothing but hoping to find a way out. Peeling away at my own flesh hoping to develop a new layer of sensation. Unaware of the concept of pain and incapable of understanding the affection of emotion.

Eyes wide open with my mind wide shut. Heart still beating but the blood flow has ceased. Arms outstretched but my hands can’t feel.

I am numb…”

By Will J. Hobbs

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The Invisible Dragon

Where is Your Kingdom of God?

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My self-realization remains a mystery too unbelievable to conceive. A short glimpse in my past reveals a stream of mental agitations rightly suited for a psychopath. I occupied for years a n egotistical infected mind.

Fortunes, fame, and acquisitions propelled my existence. I failed immeasurable amounts of times in my self-created illusionist world. I desired an external definition of self. I was a perfectly insane.

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“The ultimate truth is so simple. It is nothing more than being in the pristine state. That is all that needs to be said.” Ramana Maharishi

A Stormy Sea

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The chase nearly achieved its hidden-purpose my self-destruction. My obsessed mind of endless attachments and constant thinking positioned my exit many times. Fortunately, my path to spiritual awareness existed through this portal, this burnt out life. Remarkably and thankfully, my spiritual restoration would take place on earth.  Again, thank God.

“The kingdom of God will not come if you watch for it. Nor will anyone be able to say, ‘It is here’ or ‘It is there.’ For the kingdom of God is within you.” Jesus

417266_11ddI never will prescribed to the acceptance of a God mediator.  I desire to find the God in me of my own accord.  I do not want interpretation of my salvation.  The world’s religions saturated with angry Gods, restricted diets, forbidden wearing of clothing creates more confusion than harmony.

I AM…?

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And so, I sought a definition to “I AM” without declaring obedience to man’s interpretation of God. This road a lonely stretch of self-inquiry where no exist to interpret the language and sounds of God.  I love it this way.  I am guaranteed to find my source inside me.

To pull someone out of the mud, you must first step into the mud yourself.” Hasidic Master Israel Baal Shem Tov

If the source of God is within me, I must go into the mud and bring myself to the light.

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Tao Te Ching Verse 7

The Master is available to all people

and doesn’t reject anyone.

She is ready to use all situations

and doesn’t waste anything.

This is called embodying the light.

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What is a good man but a bad man’s teacher?

What is a bad man but a good man’s job?

If you don’t understand this, you will get lost,

however intelligent you are.

It is the great secret.

Dragon will talk later about Kingdom.

What is Spiritual Faith?

First, What Faith is Not

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Faith is not relentless praying and meditating until wishes come true. **Faith is not the practice of good behavior with hopes of a better life here or after**Faith is not the practice of customs, traditions or rituals ** Faith is not precondition behaviors for rewards, faith is not tithes**faith is not hate or intolerance**faith is not God is “On our Side,” ** faith is not a pastor, minister, pope, bishop, palm reader or fortune teller ** faith is not specific behaviors practiced on certain days ** faith is not men-only to being preachers ** faith is not believing all who disagree with your faith should burn in hell ** faith is not heterosexual nor homosexual preference ** faith is not race, creed or color ** faith is not religious clothing ** faith is not chants, mantras, or The Lord’s pray ** Faith is not the Bible, Koran, or any other book, who claims it’s a book of faith ** Faith is not being right ** faith is not a great spiritual orator ** faith is not a mega-church or a small cozy one ** faith is not an act of miracles ** faith is not the Virgin Mary ** a picture of a crying Jesus ** or a bright light witnessed in near death situations ** Faith is not things working out for you ** faith is not converting followers to your faith ** faith is not abstinence ** faith is not abstaining from pre-martial sex, alcohol, booze or drugs, ** and faith is not the sole ownership of those who believes their faith is stronger than others.

What is Faith?

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Faith is nothing. Faith is thoughtless, faith is silence, faith is stillness, faith is inner-spirit, faith is self-harmony, faith is non-judgmental, faith is egoless, faith is love of all and abandonment of none, faith is guiding one’s own life, faith is change, faith is spiritual balance, faith is self-discovery, faith is self-honesty, faith is patience, faith is self-awareness, faith is desire-less, faith is non-expectations, faith is inner-growth, faith is inclusion…Faith is saying, I’m sorry…Faith is accepting I’m sorry…Faith is forgiveness…Faith is love… Faith is blind….

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Robert Williams

A naked soul is never cold…

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I am hiding
sitting across the room
staring at myself
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in marriage with
my illusions of life
a purposeless spirit
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void of attraction
dark days season
my smile
a cocoon beast…
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as I sit and be
a spirit in darkness

The Invisible Dragon

Who shall it be?

Man looks in the abyss, there’s nothing staring back at him. At that moment, man finds his character. And that is what keeps him out of the abyss.”
Hal Holbrook

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To be worth replication one need not be original but one’s self. People desire this above recognition or gold. Truthful in light darkness the unshakable consciousness attracts.  Mountains small long travel a few feet its ship calm winds. No greater strength then self.

Man spirit twist beneath dreams and ideals. Admired spirits dreams not, self is suffice. A peaceful forte driven not to acquire or achieve. Life spins within the nature of being. The mighty lean upon its small stature.

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A truthful soul conquers desires to be what it is not. Nothing lies beneath its never masked all can see. Some men worth replicating, others vanquished atop their mischievous.

The dishonorable spirit unveiled surprisingly only to himself. The greatest lie told to oneself remains truthful.  To masquerade a life is bad luck. Days are not bright nights not long enough afraid of disclosure you pain in sleep.

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Honest hearts rescued themselves from lies that became life.

To be trusted one must be self, everything else is an act.

The curtain will come down.